i have a really bad fear of being raped. this is based off a dream i sometimes have. this isn't real. don't worry.
lyrics
I bet you’ll get some sick pleasure in this
you said it turned you on
when I cried while I gave you head
for the first time
turned you on when I screamed
turned you on when I was terrified
turned you on when I begged you to stop thrusting yourself into me
you didn’t stop.
yet my heart still does not struggle to miss you with all of it’s being
you held all of me in just the palm of your hand,
touched parts of my body i never knew existed
so much pain brought so much pleasure
you taught me pain meant love love love
began to associate the feeling of pain with love,
dug razors into my skin
began skipping meals
started smoking again
Traded sleep for late night drinking
all to feel love love love
i could no longer receive from you
was it that easy?
to fucking destroy me
and then leave?
was it that easy?
Poet Douglas Kearney and composer/producer/drummer Val Jeanty link up for a a compelling LP that feels like the written word come to life. Bandcamp New & Notable Mar 30, 2021